Eugnell

Father, Artist, Poet, Photographer

No

The strongest word for humanity is no.

Two letters have never been so important.

"No" gives us the ability to defend who we are. It gives us the ability to showcase that we will not walk and follow simply because we’re told to.

It teaches us that we also cannot do as we want. That things will not always go how we want them to, simply because we feel they should.

"No" is a very beautiful thing for all of us never neglect. It showcases how we react to situations when things dont go our way and when we finally just…stand up for ourselves.

Thank you to everyone who has told me no. To be able to hurt for a little while, but to understand that this is just how its going to be.

I’ll miss you, I did love you, but “no”is necessary.

Soccer faces ftw

Soccer faces ftw

Late Link: Preview of image Ali helped me take the other day.

Late Link: Preview of image Ali helped me take the other day.

One of the images from yesterday’s shoot with Ali

One of the images from yesterday’s shoot with Ali

Tattoo design i’ve been working on for a couple of weeks for a client.
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Tattoo design i’ve been working on for a couple of weeks for a client.

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Tangerine

"Slowly pull back, then release forward.

Control your breathing and never let go.

Slowly pull back, then release forward.

Your mind will take you anywhere and everywhere to get you to give in and give up.

Slowly pull back, then release forward

Let the pain in, then stare it straight in its fucking eye and smile,

Slowly pull back, then release forward

The words and noise fill in the empty crevices between the strings

This is the end, the inevitable climax…

Slowly pull back, then catch…release forward

This isnt it, this isnt a little boys outlet, this is a heartfelt man’s strength

Pull back, then release forward,

drop..


Here’s to your sweet collapse then.”


…sometimes, I miss sex after the gym.

Not for the touch, but for the relaxation and beautiful sleep afterwards.

2 years

I still can’t believe Eli is 2. It astonishes me. I guess the years will come and go now and I’ll be saying the same thing.

I love little dude more than anything in this world and despite the hardships, all that matters is that he’s safe and happy.

Spent about an hour with him and Emily. Was good. No arguments. No fighting. I guess maybe I can handle this and try to move on. It’s a step towards…something. unsure what, but anything is better than nothing.

We Can’t Turn Around

What if I had turned around that day.

What if I had simply turned around, kissed you on the cheek, and promised you we’d talk about it later when I got home, that this was all I needed.


It’s wishful thinking, but it’s thinking like this that reflects on the past but puts us right where we are when we read/write these things.

It doesn’t change a thing with who we are now or who we could have become.

The fact of the matter is…that I walked away…

But was it a smart decision despite the actions that occurred to me afterwards.
…you bet your ass it was.

One of my favorite images by Banksy is “girl with balloon” in which a little girl releases a red, heart-shaped balloon. For some reason, when you Google it, there’s a title named “there’s always hope”

… no. That image showcases the little girl letting go of something she loves.

We tend to learn, grow up, and mature when we take it upon ourselves to know when it’s time to let go of the things we love and simply walk away with the lesson and the reprocussions.

I’ve always loved that piece because it’s one of the things I always find myself having the most difficulty achieving.